Happy Father's Day Jeffrey!

Ok, so I am a day late and maybe a dollar short, I am not sure about that! We had a very busy weekend with Grandma Sikorski's furneral, and Father's Day! Mom and Dad took the baby on Friday night, knowing that Saturday would be very busy with the furneral and family obligations. And to top it off, Julian has a terrible cold! Poor baby! So we picked him up on Saturday afternoon, went home, changed and then went shopping...I don't know about you, but when I don't feel good, shopping always cheers me up! LOL Julian was a trooper and he did great! Sunday we spent the morning and early afternoon home, enjoying a nice quite first Father's day for Jeff. Then we went to my parents for dinner, with Grandma and Uncle Damon. It was a nice night. Here are a few pictures from that little party!

(Thanks for all the prayers for dad! They released him and now they are doing a wait and see what happens. We are hoping all will be fine and no surgery will be needed! )

Toward the end of the night, poor Julian was so tired, but we had to get a picture of Papa and him...I am not sure if he was getting ready to cry or if he was laughing at Papa...it was a long day and Mommy was very tired!



Today we had some crazy weather! We had hail the size of Silver Dollars! I have never seen hail this big before, so I had to take a picture of it...sorry it is blurry! I tried to size it with something, and all i could find was Julian's small rubber ducky!



And there is always a rainbow at the end of a storm...so here it is! Hope you found your pot of gold...I know I did! Julian and Jeff were in it! Hugs and Blessings!

A year ago today...

I was driving home from a long day at work and my cell phone rang...it was the call I will NEVER forget...we were chosen by a birthmom! It was the most exciting day...we had had a failed match earlier in the month but I knew in my heart of hearts that this was going to be our baby! And he is!

Saying good bye to this blog

Ok everyone...I have decided to start a new blog. When I set this blog up it was for our journey through adoption. So now that he is home with us and our consent hearing is only 11 days away, I figured it was time to start a new. Please go to my new blog and bookmark it. This will be my last post on here.

http://wearenow3.blogspot.com

Hope to see you there!!!!

Trying something out...

Click to play | Make your own Smilebox

My friend Dominic needs your help!

Hi everyone. My friend Dominic needs your help! Please check out his site...he is raising money for childrens cancer research. His mom and I are high school friends! They are so close to their goal...it would be great if they could meet it! With your help they will!

Dominic was diagnosed with Stage 4 Neuroblastoma, a type of childhood cancer on March 26, 2005. Two days after the birth of his baby brother and 5 days before his 5th birthday.

You can check out his web site to find out more about him at www.supportdominic.org

http://www.firstgiving.com/supportdominic

Please pass this along! You can put you heard from me about this! Coco is my nickname and that is how they all know me! Please help him out!

Some information you may not know...Cancer is the leading cause of death by disease in children under theage of 15 in the United States. Despite this fact, childhood cancer research is vastly and consistentlyunderfunded. The American Cancer Society uses only less than 2% of money raised tofund research of Pediatric Cancers.

My baby is 4 weeks old : (

4 weeks old today!

Goofy look on his face...that darn flash does it everytime!

Ok...I am sad...he is already 4 weeks old! Where does the time go? I don't know! Jeff is off this week, while I am back to work so they have been bonding. Yesterday Julian slept ALL day...I kept warning Jeff that if he sleeps all day...he will be awake for 2-3 hours over night...well sure enough my little guy did prove mommy wrong! He was up from 2-4am! Finally I got up and snuggled with him and he fell asleep. Mommy's touch! So since mom and dad are going to be watching him, they are aware that he needs to be awake during the day. Taking a nap here and there is fine...most nights he sleeps from 9-2am or 3am. SO it is time to get him back on track! He is such a good boy and I really missed him yesterday. I went home 3 times during the day from work to see him. All 3 times...HE WAS SLEEPING!!!! I kept laughing...but I was the one in turn who had to get up with him last night! I told Jeff...it is not Julian's fault...it was Daddy's fault! Ha ha!

n Labor day we went to our neighbors house for drinks and goodies...very casual and of course Julian was so good. So here is a picture of him with his Uncle Scott...Uncle Scott was so funny...he kept trying to wake him up...finally it was time to eat and he did! We love our neighbors, Jenny and Scott and Dave and Peggy have become some of our closest friends! So here are some pictures! I know I have been slacking! Sorry!

Bath time!

Well...Julian had his first bath last night. Here is a picture of him just after the bath and after he was dress...wow...it really helps him relax. He slept from 9:30pm till 5:12am!!! Mommy woke up at 3:30 and jumped out of bed to make sure he was ok...I got a bottle ready and then he slept for another 2 hours. So it was either the 6 oz or the bath...maybe both. We will let you know.

Enjoy!

Happy Birthday Nonna!

Nonna and Nonni (my mom and grandmother) came over this afternoon. It is my mother's birthday. Everytime mom holds him he falls asleep! He is just so sweet! This morning while I was feeding him...he gave me the biggest smile...my heart just sank...what an incredible feeling that is. He has smiled before, but for some reason, this morning was so special. We went to the Doctor's yesterday...our som is now up to 9 lbs 13 oz. Right on track! I can't get enough of him!

Here is a picture of Nonni with her little buddy. My grandmother is so different with him then she ever was with us. It is sweet. I am glad she is alive to see her great-grandson!

3 weeks old and his first party...

Mommy and Julian at our baby shower...

Our baby is 3 weeks old! Man time is flying...He changes every day...it just amazes me! So he had his first party...it was our baby shower last night. It was a really nice night. My mom out did herself again...my MIL & SIL were great too. I have posted some pictures from the night...today we are all just laying low! I am pooped! Mr. Julian was such a good boy! He just amazes me...we are truly blessed with a wonderful baby. Today...he is a snuggle buggle! I love it when he snuggles. So here are some pictures! Thank you to all the attended. I was so nice having all my girls around me to share in our special day!

Jeff made this amazing cake...he out does himself everytime!

My mother made these center pieces...from the book GUESS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU? The tables look amazing! Thanks mom!!!

Newsletter from Church...

We can't keep a blanket on his feet! He kickes them off all the time...Just like his mother! I am the same way...always have to have my feet exposed!

I love this little outfit...he is starting to out grow it! I am sad...

I love to get our newsletter from church. There is always something that just hits you right in the face. It always seems that there is something going on in my life that makes the newsletter so much more. Today it was about friendship and how to help grow our church by spreading the word of the lord. But this is what really hit me.

Proverbs 17:17a "A friend loves at all times"

So why do we have friends and just how important are they? God designed us to have friends and live in meaningful relationships. God uses these relationships to reveal Himself! God uses friends to love, guide and bless us!

During this wonderful time of making our family, I have seen friends come and go. So come into our lives because you have something in common, So go out of our lives because of things you no longer have in common, or jealousy or too much time has gone by to make up for the past.

While this time is so joyful for us, others have shown that they are true friends, while others fight with their innerselves and drift out of our lives. Sometimes it is very hard to come to grips with the fact that people are selfish and when good things happen to you they don't know how to deal with it. That happens with families too. I can't make you become or stay my friend. If you are my friend, you know that I am always there for you...good times and bad...during pregnancies, births of children, deaths of parents, and life changing situations. But it always seems to go one way with me. I give my all and some people just take that for granted. I can no longer think of myself...I now have a son to think of. During this time, I have seen old friends come out of the woodwork and old friends go in hiding. I am thankful for the friends who have recently appeared after all these years and feel sorry for those who have gone in hiding.

I know that everything happens for a reason...that our life is in the lords hands. But you still need to look out for number one...your family...and that is what I have done. Once jealousy appears in a friendship, you can do a few things...walk away from that friendship...confront the jealousy and let that friend know...or behave badly and have regrets later in life.

When I was younger I had a friend I was jealous of...I behaved very badly during a time that was very important in her life...her wedding...I backed out of the wedding and lost a friend forever. I have since called her to tell her that I was sorry and that I was jealious of her at that time in my life. We have never spoken again. Jealousy is an ugly thing...it destroys many relationships...good or bad. I have done alot of growing up in the past 3 weeks and realized that friends come and go...maybe years from now those friends will reappear and say they are sorry...but it will never be the same.

I pray for those people and in a sad sort of way I feel very sorry for them. I feel sorry that they are not happy with the life they are leading and they have not found the lord to help them deal with jealiousy. So everynight, pray for those you are no longer friends with...wish them well with their life and say good bye. It is a tough one to grasp...but one that needs an end.

UPDATED PICTURES OF JULIAN...

Here is our friend Frank...seeing him for the first time...

Making faces at mommy...another picture...COME ON!!!!

1st time to church

Hi everyone...as you all know, church is a huge part of our life. With out the power of prayer Julian would not be here. So of course I took a picture of him at church. He was sucha good boy. He was a wake in the begining and then he was hungry so we ate and then he slept the rest of the time. It was so nice to show everyone our new son. So many people came up to us and told huged us and said they remembered my testimony on Mother's Day and look at us now...a family. We are so blessed! Pastor Jerry was not there, so we will meet him next week! We met a really nice family, they have a son who is 3 months old. WOW what a difference. I want to keep Julian in a bubble never letting him grow up! Every day he changes. Today he wore his Tommy outfit to church and he looked so handsome.

Ok, so some of you have asked for a picture of him and me together. This is one...now mind you, it was early on and I was very tired...Since he has come home, I have lost 15 lbs! I am hoping to lost another 60 by the time he is 6 months old. That is my goal! We go for a walk everyday. He loves to go for walks and so do I.

UPDATE ON THE FINALIZATION: We saw our attorney today at church...We just love him...he told us that a date has been picked for the court appearance and it is coming up. He was shocked as to how fast things are moving and how smoothly too. So, we maybe finalized with in a month of placement! How wonderful! Our birthmother and father have signed everything and there is no turning back...we will go in front of a judge, she will assign a social worker who will then do a home visit and then mail in the final copy and it will be final! We are overjoyed! The emotions are never ending. We will let everyone know when it is done. Our attorney told us to invite as many people as we want...but I think we are going to keep it to family. Maybe Aunt Katie and Uncle Pat will be able to make it too.

For those who are waiting...think about doing the private track. You will be in control and you will know what is going on. I have all the information, so contact me and I will help you. Don't waste the money...Also buy the book...How to adopt within one year domestically. I think that is the title. I read that book front to back, and followed it to detail...and 5 months later we were matched! You have to view this as a job...a full time job...You need to help your baby find their way home. That is how I looked at it. Julian had the help from our little Joseph (BTW he would have been 4 yrs old on August 23) We went to his grave site and it was bitter sweet to have Julian there with me. It was closure for me...I will never forget him, but that chapter is over and a new one is here. Don't ever give up hope. I am here if you need help!

Our first trip to Wegmans!

So in our area, Wegmans is a big supermarket. Jeff and I would go together zip in and zip out. So we thought we would go today. Well times have changed...there was no zipping anywhere. Those darn car seats make is so hard to see over the top! But I had to document his first trip there so here is a picture of him. Of course he was taking his mid afternoon nap!

When we got home...he was still sleeping! This kid can sleep! But last night he went from 9:30pm till 3:00am! He had 4.5 ozs! He is such a good baby! Now that the Thrush is under control (thanks Sue for pointing that out!) we got it before it was really bad! I don't know where I would be without you girls! So here are a few more pictures of our darling son.

New Picture

Hi all...here is a new picture fo our boy...he is getting so big so fast! I can't stand it! Here he is in his play pen...see the bears...well I was on line, finishing up some work and he was crying so I went to check on him and the bears were attacking him...he rolled over and the bears were in his little face. I would be crying too! Hugs

Hi all...sorry i haven't posted in a few days. Life is busy. I am so in love with our son it is an amazing feeling! He is smiling and makes eye contact and gives me kisses (ok...when he is hungry he sucks on my face) I never thought being a monther would be this wonderful! I love to see peoples reactions when they see him. I am not saying this because he is mine, but people gasp at him...what a beatuiful baby! I just beam from ear to ear!

Ok...those of you are still waiting...get the Dr. Brown Bottles! They are the best out there! Julian is so darn happy, no gas, no crying...well he does cry a little but that is if he is naked or hungry...I swear...ask anyone who has seen him.

The night time is great. He goes from 9:30pm to 1:30am and then to 5-6am. It is great! Key trick is to try to keep him up during the day. I have him on a schedule and it seems to be working.

Well we are at my mom's and we have to go soon. I will post pictures this weekend! I don't want to post to many...don't want anyone to get sick of him...Yeah like that will happen! Hugs

2 weeks old!

I can't believe that our son is 2 weeks old! Man does time fly! I know a few of you have mention Thrush to me. I took that right after he ate, but I am taking him to the Dr.'s tomorrow. I can oly post for a minute...it is witching hour at our home from 8-10pm. That is the ONLY time he is fussy. So I guess we are lucky! He slept last night from 9:30pm till 3:30 am. I couldn't belive it! So we are hoping tonight will be the same. I will post tomorrow! Jeff is talking to him...he is telling him ... "No Fussing" :) I am dieing here! I love to hear him talk to him...It is so cute! I have never been more in love with my hubby as I am today! Hugs and Blessings!

ok so we had a talk...

julian and his mommy...this is what he was doing all the while...

I guess I was boring him! He is too much! Nice formula tounge. I guess I bite him 100 times a day!














Here is a little smile. He changes every day! It is amazing!

BIRTH MOTHER REPORT...for those of you who are wondering...Our birth mother went to court and signed in front of a judge. So basically it is all done. We will be going to court in 15-30 days, a social worker will be assigned for one visit and then it is finalized. But we know that there is no turning back now that she has signed in front of a judge! 12 days!!! Praise god!!! She is doing well, we spoke for a minute and I wished her all the best and told her that is doing great. She sounded good. She will always be in our prayers!

The smile is coming...

Well...it is coming...soon! He has smiled at me a few times...it is hard to capture it on camera. You can see my lipstick on the side of his face.

Is he not the cutest little guy! I could just eat him up all day! God has blessed us!!!

He is a bit gassy tonight...this too shall pass. Daddy has him right now...sounds like they are playing! 3 post in one day! I am trying to play catch up!

Hugs to all!

New Pictures...

Eyes open...it is tough to get a good shot when he is squrming! But Daddy did a great job! He's the best!

Look at the face! I could eat it up all day long!! Not sure if you can see the bib or not but it is from Aunt Paulette...It is so cute! Why are my pictures blurry??? I hate that! Oh well! Look at those lips! I kiss them when he puckers up!

I was singing him a song yesterday and he looked right at me and gave me a big grin! I cried for about 15 mins...the whole time thank god for this wonderful gift!

It is so worth the wait!

Thank you lord...

for this wonderful gift of a son. I can't tell you how blessed we feel everyday. The waiting is the worst...there is no doubt about it. It is tough on everyone involved. I thank god for such a wonderful husband. With out him and his support, love and kindness, I couldn't have gone through the process. As a waiting adoptive parent you wonder about many things...when will it happen...who will it be...what will they look like...how will I feel about the baby when they come home. All those emotions, all those thought, all those worries...with out Jeff or the Lord in my life, I don't think I could have made it.

Yes our journey was on the shorter side. We were matched at 9 months and Julian was born just over 11 months of waiting. I think the worst part of the waiting was the 72 days of being matched. Not being in control of anything. I KNEW that our birth mother was going to place. There was never a doubt from Jeff or I on that. It was just a matter of when will he be born.

Our friends have been amazing...awesome handme down (bottle sterilizer is a must!!!!) Love it! (thank you Aunt Katie) Since it has been so warm, he is really only wearing tee shirts...he looks so cute BTW. The phone calls are everyday, checking on him and us...I could have asked for a better group of friends. A shout out goes to all of our friends who said they would call the group of friends and DID! THANK YOU !!!! I felt bad the other day when we were walking and a friend of mine saw us and said she had no idea...I guess some calls were not made...I appoligized to her and asked her to call the others so they would know.

This weekend is going to be a quite one. We are home as a family...I am sending out Thank you notes, doing laundry, going for a walk...just being a family. I will post pictures later today. I am trying to get one with his eyes open...he was awake yesterday for 6 hours...he was a tired little guy! So...hugs and blessings!

We are all still here!

Hi everyone...we have been very busy! Busy visiting family and friends. We also have a very happy little boy! He eats, sleeps, poops and pees and is now smiling! I am going to try to get it on film! He sleeps about 4-5 hours during the night...you read right 4-5 hours!!! Our birth mom told me that he would and I didn't believe her! Well she was right!

So as of next week it will be finalized...all we have to do is go to court for the ceremony, but other then that we will be all set by early next week! We are so thrilled! He will be all ours! When our court date comes up I will let you all know. It should be soon. We have an inside track, so we are keeping our fingers crossed that it will be soon! But since our Birth Mom is going to sign in front of a judge that is it!!! So we could ask for anything more! Please keep praying and I will let you know what happens.

So I have attached a few photos of recent days! Enjoy!

Julian and Aunt Katie at his first Bible Study --->