I am so tired!

Hi all...well the letters are out and the ads begin this week! I can't tell you how tired I am. Tired of waiting, tired of working, tired of not being a mom, tired of Christmas songs! I know that it is always tought this time of the year, but I am dreading Christmas eve with the in laws. I sound jelious, an maybe I am! My in laws are all about the the boys! Forget about what is going in our world...isn't it terrible to be jelious of a 5 and 3 year old? I don't hink they understand that it is very difficult to be around them. My sister in law always makes the comment "want one?" What I really want is to slap her! She is very insensitive of our feelings. But houw do you change someone who does it all the time after being told please don't say that! I think one of these days when she does say it I am going to tell her that I am coming over to get the 3 year old and actually show up that day! That will make her stop! I am sure! I sound so bitter but it is very difficult. I know some of you understand, being childless when everyone in you framily has children but you. I am not jelious of my friends and their kids. That is what is strange about it all. I can't say I am envious either. I know our time will come!

Now to an update on the adoption! We have placed some ads...In the bee's locally, in Pittsburg and in Fort Wayne IN. I am thinking we may go toward Indianapolis or South Bend next year. We will see. Our attorney said we need to be consistant with our ads and to run them as much as possible. It is amazing how expensive it is to run a 7 day classified ad! It is a rip off if you want my opionion! The Bee ads start on Weds. and the Pitt and and Fort Wayne will be later this week. We are just waiting for our attorney letter to come in. I was looking at college papers...I think we may go into Columbia Univiersity...May be we will get a bright baby! Well it is time to go to work... Hugs and blessings!