Fabulous Friday!
Greetings on this wonderful Friday Morning. The sun is shining and life couldn't be better! I am sorry for those who enjoy my Thursday 13...life got in the way and I was very busy at work. Today is going to be a good day...I woke up in a great mood, my hair turned out great...I am not crazy about the outfit I have on today but it will do! The only down side of the day will be my annual trip to the OB/GYN...we all dread that appointment! But it is that time of the year...so I must go!
I have a few things I want to talk to him about...Jeff would really like to have a bio baby...this I know...but what are my chances that I would go full term? What are my chances that I wouldn't make it past the my 16th week again? All these things keep going thru my head...It has been 3 long years since we've been pregnant. I will admit...I long to feel the flutter of the baby for the first time...I miss that feeling. Is this what women go thru who have been pregnant and gone full term, had their baby, or two or three and can no longer have babies...due to either age or what ever? I need to investigate this more, I feel it in my heart that I need to do this. I am not getting any younger and if it can happen we have to figure out what to do keep that baby alive! I personally want to adopt...I know that Jeff does too...but he would like to have a bio baby...I am sure all men feel that way, when they are pursuing adoption...Jeff is not the only guy that feels that...this I know. This is one thing I know...I have problems carrying boy babies. For what eer the reason is...my mother and her mother the same thing. All of my mothers aunts except for one only had girls and only had one child...see the pattern? So...we will see!
I am proof that after adoption people conceive...I am that baby. Mom and dad brought Damon home inFebruary and Mom was pregnant with me by October. So there is a glimmer of hope.
But I do HATE when people say to us when they find out we are adopting..."Oh, you watch you will get pregnant as soon as you adopt!" I HATE THAT!!! HATE IT, HATE IT...becasue what if we DON"T????? UGH!!!!
I have been thinking alot latley about our little Joseph...his birthday would have been March 12...that was our due date...So Monday is going to be a sad day. I am going to see my friend Rae and her new baby on Monday too. I know that God will keep me strong that day. My father calls those types of days...Grown Up days...the days you really don't want to do something but have to...well...this is one thing I must do...or it will constantly linger...just get it over with, and MOVE ON!
So that is it in a nut shell...Don't for get to thank god for your day and give praise to him! Hugs and Blessings!
2 comments:
I am due to go to the gyno too!!! Uggg!!! She will say lose weight!!! "I am trying doctor!!" Anyway, I hope everything works out at the doctor, and hope all your dreams come true for you soon!!!
I got the same quote about "Now that you adopted, you just might get pregnant" about a billion times! I just say, Yes, I hear it does happen and maybe we will.." I have unexplained infertility. Lots of test were done, 2 surgerys, and they still don't know why. My hubbys test was fine too. After trying 6 years to get pregnant, I did invitro and it didn't work. We waited 11 months with the agency before we adopted Jacob and he will be one year old next week and NOW PEOPLE ARE ASKING "ARE YOU GOING TO ADOPT AGAIN!""" ARGH....THE QUESTIONs NEVER NEVER STOP!!! Dana-a lurker!
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