Good Friday

I couldn't wait to get home and post on my blog...they whole way home I was planing on what I was going to type. Tonight I took my mother and grandmother to church for our Good Friday Service. It was wonderful! I wonder if everyone who attends church finds meaning in the sermon on their life...Does that make sense? Tonight they were talking about 4 things that Jesus felt on this holy day...they are Rejection, Suffering, Loneliness and Courage...so my mind began to think on my way home with my mother in the back seat of the car...Her knee was hurting and didn't want to get in the front after we dropped Gram off. So hear me out. During this wonderful waiting process we have felt Rejection...Rejection from a birth mother who chosen someone else ( not our current Birth Mother)...Suffering...We have suffered 5 m/c and 5 long years of IF and adoption process...Loneliness...Loneliness on Mothers day...when all my friends are enjoying their day with their children...or in the middle of the night when the house is quite...I long to hear a baby cry. And Last Courage...the Courage to get up every morning day after day to do the same thing we have done for the last 5 years...wait for our baby to arrive. The courage to call our agency or attorneys to see how many times we were profiled in the last month and then getting the rejection of not being chosen yet. You see...those 4 things that Jesus felt some 2000 years ago...we all feel...we have to remember his love for us and what he did for us...he died for us...for our sins...the rejection that no one helped him...the suffering he endured on the cross that day...the loneliness of knowing he was all alone...and finally the Courage...that he was taking the full brunt of our anxiety. We have to know that Faith and Fear are co-existing and Faith will win if you allow it! Thank him tonight for dieing for us...taking our sins with him...if you have children at home...thank him for such wonderful blessings you have and if you don't have children yet...thank him for the courage he gives you to continue this wonderful adoption journey. Many blessings