Birth Mothers...

I am having some mixed emotions tonight. I have a friend that I met early on in the adoption process...she was talking with her Birth Mother, driving her to appointments and really keeping up with her...it seemed like she was handling her own adoption but she has an attorney. Well her Birth Mother is days away from delivering MB's baby. It is so exciting but in a strange way I am jealous! UGH I HATE THAT! I am so happy for them and they have been though so much with their Birth Mother...it has been a long road. But deep down I am wishing it was me, with out all the drama of the last 4 or 5 months. They are so deserving of this baby...this is their baby.

I am wondering what our Birth Mother is doing right now...Is there drama in her life? I hope not...I hope that she is at peace with her decision. I know some adoptive parents feel guilty about adopting their baby and feel bad for the Birth Mother and that is what they feel. But coming from a family with an adoptive brother...I don't feel that guilt...I feel like this is the most wonderful thing that a Birth Mother could do for her baby. Admitting that she is unable to care or give her baby what she thinks the adoptive parents can give is HUGE in my book. It is more of an honor feeling...How brave she is...how strong...how awesome she is. I feel like she is my hero...giving us a baby we or I could not carry. I am a bit jealous of our birth mother too. I am jealous that she was able to feel our baby inside her for so long...every movement...every kick...every turn...that is something she will always have that I won't. So maybe we both have something one another can't have. I thank god that there are birth mothers out there. I don't feel sorry for them...God created birth mothers so people like us in the adoption community could have children...how powerful is that! Adoption is all over the bible...what a gift!